I promise I live!
Jan. 3rd, 2026 08:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sapphicfairyoracleHey, journal.
So that end of 2025 was quite a ride.
I'm no longer in a vet technician program, but now in a Bachelor's program for a Business administration major. I think I stayed the same weight-wise. I didn't get to move out. I mourned a lot about dropping out of Penn Foster and leaving the internship like I did. (I liked it, even if I was sore a lot. I have a love for animals and had an idea of going into zoos and animal conservation after it all.) I still feel so far from getting more chances to get a working visa abroad in most Europe countries; And with that old orange orangutang in the white house ruining this country, it might just get even harder for an American to move abroad.
But you know what? The year of the (fire) horse gives me lots of hope that the reflection of last year will help me get everything in motion. Year of the snake had us all shedding what didn't serve us to now run forward with new ambitions.
A few set backs, but I'm now getting ready to start my first day of an in-person college instead of an all-online college, for once. (and since I already got a bachelor's degree, I'm already halfway there with all the classes I need for required credits.) I'm getting resources on how to work out and get physical from home without a gym membership. I'm also researching more affordable ways to move out, even if it means a roommate. I'll even make sure the roommate likes or at least tolerates my cat. I go nowhere without my kitty. (My boy will turn 8 in February! Can't believe it.) Manifesting that the roommate is as cat-crazy as I am. (The only men allowed in the house is male cats, I would say and make sure of!)
I might be in a rush for looking for a new place closer to the college, especially when some student-apartments will start opening up in the fall semester. However, it would need to be temporary as it is a complex for students, and I'd like something a bit more longer term even after getting my degree. While it isn't a race, I probably shouldn't wait too long, as rent just goes up and up. I hate it here in this state. Too expensive and can't move out of state as long as I'm in school for the next 2 years. However, even that will need to be tentatively temporary as I keep looking for chances to move to Spain or Ireland. (roommate hunting might be the best option most likely.)
Not like I hate living with family. I just think it's best I had my own place and didn't have to play host every Saturday to family coming by, get to decorate and decide what I want with the place (not just confined to my bedroom) because my sister just decorates the house her way, and only have to worry about me. Also, living closer to the college would be ideal and not have to spend a whole hour to and back a few times a week.
I will also be focusing on my spirituality some more this year. I neglected that with internship. Getting my meditation game on and my rituals. Tonight, on the first full moon of the year, I cleaned the altar, making moon water, about to brew some cups of tea for my deities and ancestors on the altar, and am journaling as some of my rituals. Digital or writing physically should be fine either way, I say! My wishes I am manifesting for I did in a 13 wish ritual during Yule. I burned 12 of my wishes away into the universe to bring to me this year. I am responsible for at least 1, and that is a new place for me and my cat.
New resolutions will be to be more focused on my health, read more books, and be more fluent in a new language. I will be trying to brush up on my Spanish more. Would also love to try some yoga as a new hobby that's offline. Going to try to draw more, too! I will only get better if I do it more. No more being disappointed in how I write fanfic or OC stories or draw art. I will do it; And this time, it will be mostly be my Original characters and less fan content. Less fandom engaging and more creating and making content of my lesbian original characters being girlfriends!
I'm tired and a bit overwhelmed about my plans. But I feel I have to keep the momentum going to get this ball rolling. No pain, no gain, they say. Now to go make that tea for my altar as offerings. Maybe my spirit team will like the cookies, too.
So that end of 2025 was quite a ride.
I'm no longer in a vet technician program, but now in a Bachelor's program for a Business administration major. I think I stayed the same weight-wise. I didn't get to move out. I mourned a lot about dropping out of Penn Foster and leaving the internship like I did. (I liked it, even if I was sore a lot. I have a love for animals and had an idea of going into zoos and animal conservation after it all.) I still feel so far from getting more chances to get a working visa abroad in most Europe countries; And with that old orange orangutang in the white house ruining this country, it might just get even harder for an American to move abroad.
But you know what? The year of the (fire) horse gives me lots of hope that the reflection of last year will help me get everything in motion. Year of the snake had us all shedding what didn't serve us to now run forward with new ambitions.
A few set backs, but I'm now getting ready to start my first day of an in-person college instead of an all-online college, for once. (and since I already got a bachelor's degree, I'm already halfway there with all the classes I need for required credits.) I'm getting resources on how to work out and get physical from home without a gym membership. I'm also researching more affordable ways to move out, even if it means a roommate. I'll even make sure the roommate likes or at least tolerates my cat. I go nowhere without my kitty. (My boy will turn 8 in February! Can't believe it.) Manifesting that the roommate is as cat-crazy as I am. (The only men allowed in the house is male cats, I would say and make sure of!)
I might be in a rush for looking for a new place closer to the college, especially when some student-apartments will start opening up in the fall semester. However, it would need to be temporary as it is a complex for students, and I'd like something a bit more longer term even after getting my degree. While it isn't a race, I probably shouldn't wait too long, as rent just goes up and up. I hate it here in this state. Too expensive and can't move out of state as long as I'm in school for the next 2 years. However, even that will need to be tentatively temporary as I keep looking for chances to move to Spain or Ireland. (roommate hunting might be the best option most likely.)
Not like I hate living with family. I just think it's best I had my own place and didn't have to play host every Saturday to family coming by, get to decorate and decide what I want with the place (not just confined to my bedroom) because my sister just decorates the house her way, and only have to worry about me. Also, living closer to the college would be ideal and not have to spend a whole hour to and back a few times a week.
I will also be focusing on my spirituality some more this year. I neglected that with internship. Getting my meditation game on and my rituals. Tonight, on the first full moon of the year, I cleaned the altar, making moon water, about to brew some cups of tea for my deities and ancestors on the altar, and am journaling as some of my rituals. Digital or writing physically should be fine either way, I say! My wishes I am manifesting for I did in a 13 wish ritual during Yule. I burned 12 of my wishes away into the universe to bring to me this year. I am responsible for at least 1, and that is a new place for me and my cat.
New resolutions will be to be more focused on my health, read more books, and be more fluent in a new language. I will be trying to brush up on my Spanish more. Would also love to try some yoga as a new hobby that's offline. Going to try to draw more, too! I will only get better if I do it more. No more being disappointed in how I write fanfic or OC stories or draw art. I will do it; And this time, it will be mostly be my Original characters and less fan content. Less fandom engaging and more creating and making content of my lesbian original characters being girlfriends!
I'm tired and a bit overwhelmed about my plans. But I feel I have to keep the momentum going to get this ball rolling. No pain, no gain, they say. Now to go make that tea for my altar as offerings. Maybe my spirit team will like the cookies, too.
